Happy Mother's Day to all the mommys!
Everyone is coming over my new house for Mother's Day. They should be here in about an hour. I hope they hurry up though because I am really hungry.
The landlord had her son come and fix the sink today. We will see how long that lasts.
Ryan and Pat just went to Murrays to see something about a trailer hitch. They have been gone an awfully long time. I am starting to get the feeling that they weren't really going to Murrays and Ryan just ditched out on me an hour before the party started. He better hope he catches a lot of fish because he ain't coming back in this house for food if he just hoed me out.
I finally have the internet back at my house. YAY.
-->Britt
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2005-05-08 12:41 |
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(x) Snuck out of the house
( ) Gotten lost in your city
(x) Saw a shooting star
(x) Been to any other countries besides the United States
( ) Had a serious surgery
(x) Gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) Kissed a stranger
( ) Hugged a stranger
(x) Been in a fist fight
(x) Been arrested
(x) Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) Swore at your parents
(x) Been in love
(x) Been to a casino
( ) Been skydiving
(x) Skinny-dipped
(x) Skipped school
(x) Saw a therapist
( ) Done the splits
( ) Played spin the bottle
(x) Gotten stitches
( ) Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) Bitten someone
(x) Been to Niagara Falls
(x) Gotten the chicken pox
(x) Kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) Crashed into a friend's car
( ) Been to Japan
(x) Ridden in a taxi
(x) Been dumped
(x) Shoplifted
(x) Been fired
( ) Had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) Gone on a blind date
(x) Lied to a friend
(x) Had a crush on a teacher
( ) Celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
( ) Been to Europe
(x) Slept with a co-worker
( ) Been married
( ) Gotten divorced
(x) Had children
( ) Seen someone die
( ) Had a close friend die
( ) Been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten sushi
(x) Been skiing/snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Lost a child
( ) Gone to college
( ) Gotten so drunk you don't remember anything you did
(x) Gotten so high that you thought you were going to die
( ) Graduated college
(x) Fired a gun
(x) Taken painkillers
(x) Love someone or miss someone right now
(make me cry)
Ryan and I went to Canada last night.
I hate the casino and everything it stands for, it's the only place in the world you can go and spend seventy dollars in less than an hour and not have a damn thing to show for it. It was my birthday money, whatever... I guess there's no loss there.
Happy late birthday to me.
I wish I could go to Canada and get super hammered but no doing that in the life of a prego. I drank 1/2 a glass of wine last night and I felt awful like I was going to die because I was so drunk. I guess drinkin' just isn't my cup of tea anymore. I wish I could just lay back and smoke a fattie, but I can't even do that anymore. Damn.
I was going to tell Linda that I was expecting again last night at dinner but I pussied out. I don't want to have to tell her that shit. It's not that I think she is going to be mad, it's just that disappointing her hurts so much worse. I HATE thinking that I am a disappointment to her.
My stupid fucking cell phone broke! I paid $280 for that bitch and it broke less than 3 months later. I'm taking that shit to the sprint store tomorrow and throwing it at the sales persons head. They better fix it, I'm not paying a deductible on that shit because Samsung is a piece of fucking chink shit.
Aiden cut like 5 teeth last week and he has been a crab ass every day. I don't even look forward to spending time with him when I'm home from work because he's so damn grumpy all the time. He screams and cries over the stupidest shit. I know he's teething and all but damn. Hopefully it won't last too long.
--> Britt
(8 tears | make me cry)
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2004-11-08 00:46 |
| Subject: | Long day. |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  content | | Music: | One Call Away --> Chingy |
Had a kick ass day at work today. Made probably $200. Then I helped decorate the store for Christmas. It was so much fun, we still have a lot of work to do but we have so many creative people and such great ideas that we might have a chance at winning this thing. Even if we don't win atleast the store looks rockin.
David is going to teach me how to drive a stick on Wednesday after work. If I can do it ok I'm buying his car on Thursday. Atleast I will have a car to last me through the winter and when i get my tax return I will have enough money to put a fatty down payment on a brand new car. That way I can build my credit and then get a fatty condo.
I hate not having a car. I feel like such a bum depending on everyone else for rides. Like I am sixteen again or something. I am used to giving everyone rides, not getting them from everyone else. But I guess you give a little you get a little. Glad my friends are true enough to help me when I need it.
I am taking Aiden to get a haircut tomorrow. I wanted to take him to get his ears pierced too, but Ryan thinks that he will try and rip it out because he is too young. I can't do it if Ryan doesn't think it's a good idea yet. I know I would be pissed if he went behind my back and did something I asked him not to do.
I spent the night at his house on Friday night. I called to talk to him and he told me to come over at two. So, I set my alarm on my phone for two, called a cab and went over there. I was going to leave at like 4 but he asked me to stay the night with him. I stayed until eight in the morning. Now he is accusing me of "taking advantage" of him when he was drunk. I didn't even realize how drunk he was until he literally passed out and started snoring loud as hell and that was after the fact. I don't think it constitutes as "taking advantage." He did the same shit last week on Aiden's birthday sober as hell. He is just calling it that because now his friends know I was there because Chris saw me. Whatever. Ryan loves me and he knows it. He just takes a lot of shit from his friends and hates to hear their bitching and them poking fun at him.
I don't really care what happens, I miss him a lot some days but other days I come to the realization that... things in life happen for a reason and if me and Ryan are meant to be we will eventually be, I just have to let life take it's own course and see where I end up. I just have to go with the flow. All I really want as of right now is to be able to spend the holidays with my son. To spend them with Ryan would be a fantastic bonus but to spend them with Aiden would be fine just as well. Maybe the happy family I always dreamed of is Aiden and I, not all three of us. I just want to have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year too. LoL.
--> Britt
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2004-11-01 13:25 |
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| Mood: |  annoyed |
I am really frustrated today.
Aiden and me took a nap and he woke up all sneaky like before me and trashed the house. He is being a little devil.
Last night when I took him trick-or-treating he totally learned that when you go up to someones door and bang on it, that they give you candy.
Last night I tried to call Ryan after I got off the internet, just to talk and he flipped out. He told me that he has very little respect for me and that he doesn't think he could ever respect me again because of what happened. That fat fucker Jeremy should have never opened his mouth he ruined my life. I just tried to be his friend and that didn't work. What am I supposed to do? I can't be nice to him, or he trips out and tells me not to call him. I explained the fact that him and I are going to have to know eachother for the rest of our lives so it is just a waste of time and energy to argue forever about things the neither of us can change. I think he caught my drift. I don't know... maybe this is going to take a lot longer than I expected. I don't care how long it takes.
Right when I fell asleep last night I was woken up by a helly loud crash. My neighbors truck totally got hit and the alarm was going off and everything. The son ran out of the house and I couldn't really see but a girl was standing there in a Halloween costume with him. He ran in the house I was guessing to shut the alarm off but all of the sudden, I heard her heels clicking and her running and she took off with whoever else she was with in the car. So right then the hillbilly dad came out and was like "Oh FUCK! MY TRUCK!" LoL. It totally sucks for them. But it was still funny. LoL.
TIME FOR SOAPS!
--> Britt
(make me cry)
I don't know where life is taking me now.
I guess when everyone graduates they completely grow up into new people. I don't know what I am going to be, because I don't know where the road is taking me.
I don't want my life to be without Ryan but I don't know where to begin on getting him back.
Jeremy told me Ryan has naked pictures of Tiffany on his phone. That shit makes me sick. Everytime I think about her I want to kill her. Damn homewrecking bitch. I never thought that a person could hate another person so much. I wish that I could whoop Tiff's ass but I can't. I just have to steal her man the way she stole mine. I have to take him back.
He has a bond with me. He is going to be forever drawn to me because of Aiden and he will always love me in some way shape or form the same love I have for him. I just have to figure out how to bring out the love. LOL... that sounds funny.
Maybe I should just give up, and let him come back on his own time. I just can't bring myself to lose him. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?
I know I was terrible for things I did, but everything wasn't my fault. I am going to start by trying to not be a bitch.
I know if he will still have sex with me, that means deep down he has feelings for me right?
AH! i AM TOO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW TO TALK.
--> Britt
(make me cry)
I cannot be held accountable for my actions. After all this time, it*s like we pick up right where we left off.
I know I*m not supposed to, but it makes me wonder if it is supposed to be like this. What if it is meant to be?
I love Ryan. That*s all I have to say. I love him. <3
Payback is a bitch.
-->Britt
(make me cry)
Sometimes I do things I shouldn't do, I know this. We all do things that we end up regreting a minute later, accidents happen to everyone... I feel like the only person in the whole world who is never forgiven for the things I do.
I have huge bruise on my face from the other night. I never thought he would bruise me... I always thought he loved me, once again I was wrong.
I am struggling so bad with this decision. If I take Ryan to court over Aiden, we can never be together again. I can't be fighting someone in court and trying to have a relationship with them at the same time. This as explained to me today and it makes a ton of sense. I will give it awhile longer... if nothing gets better between him and I in the next 5 weeks, I am taking him to court. Then I will know whether or not we are going to be together.
...It takes 30 days to break a habit...
The doctor prescribed me some meds today. Paxil... with some luck it will turn me back into the person I used to be instead of this depressed bitch.
I tried to beat up Kalen two different times in the last three days. I drove around the block 7 million times waiting for this bitch to leave Ryan's house but she is too much of a pussy. the bitch knows I will beat her. Who the hell is she to lock Ryan's door on me and then sit there and watch movies with him? When I get my hands on this girl it's over!
All I want is Ryan, my heart is aching.
He hates me, he thinks I kicked in his door and he told his dad that I punched a hole in his wall when he is really the one that did it! His dad thinks I hit myself in the face and gave myself a bruise and they all think I am lying about almost getting car jacked. I never gave anyone a reason to think I would lie about something so serious.
I have to report to my PO tomorrow. I hope that Mike will understand about Saturday and give me another work day. I am paying to be there, I don't see why he wouldn't. Maybe I should just spend the remainder of my work days in jail... it's only 48 hours. But I think if I did that I would come out crazier than ever. I would miss Aiden like crazy.
I rearranged my living room today. It looks so good. I am such the interior decorator... lol.
I have to take Aiden over to Ryan's tomorrow. I don't know how I am going to make it. I HAVE to act like I don't care, he has to love me again. We are meant to be together.
Joel is so freaking hot... I hung out at his apartment again tonight. We got in pillow fights and threw tennis balls at eachother. They are so much funner to hang out with than Ryan and all them. They don't make me feel stupid.
Well I better go to bed... I have to get up at 830.
--> <3 Brittany
(1 tear | make me cry)
See I dont know why I liked you so much...
I gave you all of my trust...
I told you I loved you...
Now that's all down the drain, you put me through pain, I wanna let you know how I feel...
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now...
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out...
Fuck all the kisses they don't mean me jack...
Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back...
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now...
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out...
Fuck all the kisses they don't mean me jack...
Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back...
You thought you could keep this shit from me...
You burnt bitch I heard your story...
You played me...
You even gave him head...
Now you're askin' for me back, your just another act, look elsewhere cuz you're done with me...
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now...
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out...
Fuck all the kisses they don't mean me jack...
Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back...
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now...
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out...
Fuck all the kisses they don't mean me jack...
Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back...
You question...
Did I care?...
You could ask anyone...
I even said you were my great one...
Now it's over...
But I do what you said...
It hurts real bad...
I can't sweat that cuz' I loved a hoe...
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now...
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out...
Fuck all the kisses they don't mean me jack...
Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back...
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now...
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out...
Fuck all the kisses they don't mean me jack...
Fuck you, you hoe, I DONT WANT YOU BACK...
It's ok... he stopped me from beating her ass one time, but Ryan won't always be there to protect you hoe. You'll get what's coming to you, you nasty bitch! GET YOUR NOSE FIXED SKANK!
Love, Britt :o)
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2004-02-16 13:31 |
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| Mood: |  pissed off |
Tonight I have a meeting with the psychiatrist. I am really hoping that he/she can really help me. I don't want to feel like this anymore than I already have.
Ryan and I went to his Grandparents yesterday. We barely pulled out of the alley before we were fighting. He was telling me how he hates me. He must of told me 10 times that he hated me. When I dropped him off at home he didn't even invite me in. He just made me go home and sit by myself. But Amy is allowed over... grrr...
-->Britt
(make me cry)
I made Ryan a valetine in Spanish class. It said "No se porque, perote quiero. !Feliz dia de San Valetin!" ((I don't know why, but I love you. Happy Valentines Day! I love him, I can't wait until Valentine's day. We are going to have the best time. No matter what! Nothing could ruin the mood I am in today.
I went over his house and got some this morning... it was a beat and peace mission.... lmao. I love him. I love everything.
Well except lying little hoes...
well g2g
Britt
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2004-02-11 13:49 |
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Yesterday I went over Ryan's house to pick up Aiden after night school. In the notebook that I had found the hotel numbers in was written "Please don't rip out pages, thanks:o)" SO I ripped out the pages and wrote big as hell on the next page "Go fuck yourself please, THANKS!" I am not going to play these little games. I am going over to Ryan's house tonight. I guess Amy didn't write it, atleast that is what Pat told me, so if I see Kalen, I will kindly tell her that I wouldn't have to rip out pages if she wouldn't make reservations in hotels to sleep with Ryan. And to not try and tell me what to do, because I definately belong in that house more than she does. That is MY baby's daddy's house! FUCK THAT BITCH! I swear to God, i just want to grab the girl and rip all the hair out of her fucking head. I hate her. I hate her friends. I hate them all. Watch I know I can do it, I'll make sure Ryan hates them too, one way or another
-->Britt
(2 tears | make me cry)
Ryan got a hotel room in Canada with Kalen and Amy on Saturday night. He didn't even go with Danny. He just lied to me.
So we had crazy escapades in Canada. I went to the hotel.
All day I couldn't eat or drink a thing. My heart hurt so bad, and I had the worst butterflies in my tummy.
I went to his house last night and Amy and Kalen are there because he went shopping w/ them all day long. Amy was all cleaning his house and shit I wanted to kill her. I hate her. I hate all of them so much. Call it jealousy, call it what you want... I hate them.
I bawled my eyes out and seriously wanted to put myself in the hospital. My heart hurts so bad. I never thought I could ever feel a pain like this.
Ryan is the one person I turn to when people do me wrong, who do I turn to when HE does me wrong?
I want him more than anything in the world. I wish I could take everything back. Love is so blind. he is like poison for me. I can't do it anymore. I AM SO FUCKING SAD.
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2004-02-07 18:58 |
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| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  sad | | Music: | Kid Rock & Sheryl Crow - Pictures |
Another Saturday night all by my lonesome.
Ryan is in Canada. Probably with Amy and Kalen... stupid fucking bitches.
Last night I went out with Jillian and we went to Ryan's to buy a bag... when I got there everyone is in the backroom smoking and Kalen is in the living room with Aiden. Then me and Killian roll ours up and go smoke and when I walk back into the living room Kalen is holding him! SO I took him away... then when me and Jillian were leaving... I look up in the window and Kalen is holding him again! Fucking BITCH! I know these stupid little bitches asre taking my place and there is nothing I can do to stop it. They were at his house way past midnight! I stopped by before I went home and Ryan is watching movies with them, and doesn't bother inviting me. MY heart is breaking. It is breaking soo bad.
I just want to be loved. I guess I am not deserving of that. I just want to be loved.
I missed my first work day today. I have to go up to the court on Monday and try and talk to my prob. officer about it. Hopefully they will just give me other days. I will just explain to them that I have a new baby, it was my first week back to school, my alarm clock didn't go off, and how the whole world is out to get me. Too much is going on in my life right now. I'm sure if I went to jail for 3 days that Aiden would forget all about me and Ryan would have him thinking those FUCKING WHORES are his mommy. Ryan might need a new girlfriend but AIden does not need a new mommy. Bottom line, if I take my son out of your arms bitch, don't wait until i fucking leave to pick him back up. GOD I AM SO UPSET!
I can't handle him hanging out with these girls at all. I know he likes them more than me, I know this because he told me this. I can't handle it, and I WISH I knew how to just forget. I want to just forget.
-->Britt
PS I HATE ALL YOU STUPID LITTLE FUCKING WHORES, GO GET YOUR OWN MEN AND LEAVE MINE ALONE. YOU DAMN HOME WRECKERS. I HAVE A FAMILY WITH THIS KID, YOU CANT FUCKING DO THIS... ITS WRONG. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND BITCH! I HOPE YOU REMEMBER THAT!
(1 tear | make me cry)
Pat always finds the stpuidest ways to make me feel like an absolute moron. I don't know what to think about anything.
I used to not be like this. I used to not let everyone play games with my head.
That's what you are doing to me. You are playing games with my head, tearing out my heart and spitting all over it.
I want things to change. I want things to change so badly but I don't know how to go about it. In a way I think he doesn't want things to change. He wants them to stay like they are.
So what if I am a little jealous? Don't I have the right to be? I know that if I had a bunch of random guys hanging out at my house that he would be upset... atleast I hope he would be upset. If he wouldn't be then why bother with any of it at all?
I miss the old you and the way things used to be... before him, before her, before it all. It can never be like that again. :o(
I think I am going to go to the Fox Center. I'll call auunt Pat and ask her the number. I need medication. I hate to say it because I feel so sad and that just makes me feel crazy, but my mind can't deal with this anymore.
I feel like I am on the edge of a complete nervous breakdown when I think about it.
Where are all my old friends? I need you now! Everyone is too busy with their own lives, and I don't mean to sound self-centered but I really need someone to lean on right now. I guess I know now, that all of you were never my friends at all. I am so lonely and so sad. He was all I had, he helped me through everything. Now I feel like an idiot everytime I see him.
All I can do is hope and pray that it doesn't end up like I think it will. I know she- and if not her then someone else- will replace me.
I am dreading night school tonight. 4 hours of Pat and Juan might make me crazy
They make me feel so stupid, like I am holding on to something that just can't be. I am... I am holding on to the hope that we will be together again. I need to give up. I give up.
You are right, you were right all along, a reality check is what I need. This is my reality, and that is yours. I guess I just have to live with it... and accept...
The only person who loved me and I blew it, I don't know what else to do. I'm just giving up.
--> Britt
(1 tear | make me cry)
Ryan finally got his apartment. A really nice apartment right above a workshop on Warren by his dad's house. Him and Joey C. rent it for only $650 a month. It has 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a kitchen a dining room and a humungous living room. There is no heat there yet, so Aiden can't go there, but I went there last night and I am staying the night there tonight too. (Harry is watching the boy)
Tomorrow Ryan and I are going out to his aunt Linda's new house for Thanksgiving dinner. It is my baby boy's very first Thanksgiving! I don't know why my family never has Thanksgiving dinner anymore. When I was little we used to go over to my aunt Pat's every single year. But I thinkw e don't do that anymore just because uncle Tom has completely tore apart aunt Pat's house. That must be the reason. There would be no room for a Thanksgiving dinner at their house.
Friday night Ryan is having a party at his house. My mom is watching Aiden. And Saturday Elizabeth is coming out here and we are going to get drunk with Jillian and probably go back to Ryan's house and crash because mom's watching Aiden that night too. I can't wait to hang out and get drunk with my friends. I get all giddy when I think about it. Hehehe! I'm gunna get fucking wasted!!!! EEEE!
Been talking to Doute a lot lately. I miss him so much. I know it sounds wrong... Actually it sounds very very wrong, but in a wierd way, I still to this day have feelings for that kid. He comes home on December 28th. I am going to hang out with him this time he is home. I dindn't get to last time because of fucking Ryan. But Doute won't be back for over a year this time, so I better make the best of the time he is here. We will get drunk. Hehe. Every time I hear that 3 Doors Down song, here without you... or something like that. I think of him and how much I miss him. I mean, what if I made a huge mistake by choosing Ryan over Doute? And me and Doute were really meant to be together like we always joked? What I ruined my life without even realizing it? What could my life have been if I had chosen him instead? I guess everyone lives with doubts and regrets and that will just have to be mine. I chose Ryan because I love him more than anything. I love him unconditionally and I always will. I love Doute too, but Ryan in a different way. I love Ryan forever. I don't know I think now that I have Aiden I am actually starting to picture the future and I get scared because I don't know what to imagine with Ryan. But if I were with Doute, my future would be laid out, we both know what we want to do with our lives. Maybe being with Ryan is so spontaneous, that I like it... Maybe I need to stop thinking about this...
Britt
(make me cry)
| Date: | 2003-11-22 01:26 |
| Subject: | Into You |
| Security: | Public |
My favorite song. Makes me think of how much I really love Ryan. :o) <3<3<3
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you now, I want to be more than a friend of you now
When they ask, I mention my baby girl in the interviews now
And I don't bring the problems from the 90's into 2 Thou'
There's no reason to have a friend or two now
'Cuz the kid's ready to tell you how he feel in a few vow's
Maybe, I speak in general now
But girl imma do whatever just to keep a grin on you now
Where I go, they wear bikini's in the winter too now
What you think about, tan lines on the skin of you now
Why wouldn't I wanna spend a few thou'
On 5th Ave. shopping spree's, and them dinners at Chao's
I ain't concerned what other men would do now
As long as when I slide up in you, you growl
And any dude with you, he better be a kin of you now
And I ain't jealous it's the principle now, I'm so into you
[Chorus: Ahsanti]
I
Really like what you've
Done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've
Done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
[Verse 2: Fabolous]
Come on ma, it's more than a flashin
I woulda traded it all, in orderly fashion
My villa in Florida we crashin
Just off the shore, so you can hear when water be splashin
The drop top 3 and a quarter we dashin
The flawless diamonds and the border we flashin
The money, we oughtta be stashin
I make sure every quarter be cashed in, I can't really explain it
My friend be thinkin I'm slippin
These girls be thinkin I'm trippin
What kinda weed he be smokin
What type of drinks he be sippin
Sweet thing, just to think of you dippin
Would have me with the blue's so hard, you would think I was crippin
Now, you relaxin' in the Benz
Credit cards with no limits, so you don't worry about maxxin' when you spend
Ever since you've been askin' 'bout the friends
How'd you like it if, both our name's had Jackson on the ends, uh
[Chorus]
[Verse 3: Fabolous]
I don't wanna trip, but truth is
Girl the way you cook a steak, remind me of those strips
You love my smile, no matter how chipped my tooth is
With you, it ain't becuase my whips is roofless
Or sit on chrome dipped dub deuces
And you aint flattered by canary envy es dipped Jesus'
Other ballers look dumb when they press you, 5 and 6's
You don't let them kinda numbers impress you
Even though I was somewhat successfull
Bein a player was becoming too stressfull
But every since, the superwoman has come to my rescue
My winter's been wonderful, my summer's been special
Let's fly to St. Bart, while the villa be painted
Just so we can get really aquainted
The love is real, there's no way it could feel like it's tainted
But I can't really explain it, uh, yeah
[Chorus]
(make me cry)
So I haven't updated in along time. I have been really busy. I'm a mommy now you know...
Aiden Edmund Wheeler was born on October 30, 2003 at 12:41 p.m. (Yes on Devil's Night... my son was born on Devil's Night...) He was 5 weeks early, but very very healthy. He weighed 5 lbs 12 oz. and was 19 3/4 inches long. Such a little stud he is.
I honestly love him more than anything in this world. I never thought I could love something as much as I love Aiden. If I knew how to put pictures into my livejournal I would definately put all my cute little pictures of him in here. I loves him! :o)
Birth wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I mean- don't get me wrong, it hurt really really bad... but once it was over, I forgot all about it. I was in labor for 10 hours, I only had to get one stitch and I have recovered really fast. I guess I had a really good delivery and as much as Dr. Kaza pissed me off before, she is a really good doctor, I would definately recommend her to other people and I would definately go back to her if I ever got pregnant again. Which I am NOT going to do under any circumstances. EVER.
I need to get Aiden insurance really bad. His doctor bills are just piling up! We already owe probably close to $300 and he has another appointment tomorrow because he has this sniffly nose thing going on. His stupid circumcision alone cost us $222! I hope the insurance will pay for it all.
But any who...
Just been sitting at home the last 3 weeks... doing school work, taking care of my boy... not getting much sleep. Not hanging out with my friends. Man, having a baby isn't all it's cracked up to be, that's for sure. But that's ok, b/c he is so much more important than hanging out with my friends, and he is such a little blessing. I can't imagine what my life would be like with out him, I forgot what life was like before him. Peaceful... I think... but that's ok... I love him anyway.
But anyway... I will try and update more often... I don't have much else to do... but I g/g
Buh Bye ! :o)
Britt Brat
(2 tears | make me cry)
| Date: | 2003-10-28 13:25 |
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Today I start my Segment 2. Next week I can get my license! :o)
Tomorrow I start my "childbirth education" classes.
Sunday is my baby shower! I am so freaking excited!
Today I got my school pictures back. They messed them up, so now I have to wait until November 5th to either get them back, or take my retakes. I will not let yet another company screw my pictures up. These ones better turn out damn good or I am going to be damn mad.
I GOT ALL A'S ON MY REPORT CARD! It only took me seven semesters, but I finally did it! I got a friggin' 4.0!!! :oD I have NEVER EVER been so proud of myself. ALL A'S WOOO HOOO!
Oh shit, I was supposed to be doin work..
Britt
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